Thinking of you and your family today, Jules. Sending love and warm hugs to you all. Xxx

Thanks Jo; such lovely support from you and other buddies on the forum is so appreciated. Hugs returned  Jules x

Hi Everyone

Been keeping busy today.  Remembering hubby on what should have been his 65th birthday. So lucky to have had him to share my life with, much misssed by me and the children/grandchildren not just today but every day. The memories will continue to carry me forward.  Jules

Hi Jules,

Sorry I missed this post yesterday for which I apologise. Another day with rememberance and it must have had sad moments for you yesterday. But I feel sure your dear husband would be so proud of you seeing you cope with all the work thats taking place .

Take care best wishes to you and your family, Brian.

Hi Chris

Thank you so much for your kind words. With the passage of time (and we know it can be different for everybody) it has come as some surprise to me at how hubby's memory now gives me strength to make decisions I never thought I would be able to face alone.  Life, as you say, is very much different but also manageable.  The support I received through the forum (just reading and  not always replying) was and still is very much part of my own journey and I cannot yet bring myself to be without this connection which has been a valuable resource in my own grieving process. 

Everybody here has their own personal journey, whether it is with the cancer themselves or being touched by it in so many ways,. A few words here and there, as you have found, both offered and received means that we do not travel entirely alone. Life is full of 'what if's' but I have begun to replace these with 'what now' and the improvements I am having done to the home we shared for all our married life was my own personal way forward (though think hubby would have somehow approved and my children's support in this has been helpful to us all).

You are finding your own strengths Chris and I wish you well and return those very thoughtful hugs to you and your family. Stay safe and well. Jules x

Thanks Brian, the kind words of my forum friends are still supporting me but, as I have just replied to Chris, with the passage of time certain things become a little easier and whilst there is still the 'ache' in my heart, in my head there is a surprising strength which is helping me to cope with the challenges that everyday life brings with it.

It is, strangely, quite therapeutic seeing my home 'change' though I am currently taking the 'grin and bear it' ride!!  Having spent the day yesterday with my daughter we arrived back to find just the cooker and boiler left in the kitchen and a temporary tap/bucket for water ha ha.  They come out on Monday so it will be like going back to my Nan's time (well not quite - her tap was on the outside wall brrrrr).  So my last hot dinner at home tonight and still deciding what to have.

There are not enough words to say how much you and my forum buddies help with your understanding words and support and  I  will always be so thankful to have found this safe place to talk (often too much::).  Thank you. Peaceful thoughts are sent to you, Mrs B and the family.  Jules x

As both Christmas and then the 2nd anniversary of my hubby's death are nearly here I thought I would post the following poem which I read today. 

Missing You

I think about you always,

I think about you still

Your have never been forgotten

And you never wilI,

 I hold you close within my heart

And there you will remain

To walk with me through my own life

Until we meet again

Jules

Two years today since hubby's passing, love however is everlasting.

Missed every day, whilst life goes on,

Remembering our life together is carrying me on

Rest in peace sweetheart.  Jules

Hi Jules.

I found this and tought you might like this

Just to let you know we are all thinking of youtoday, Brian.