dear bestdadever42  i do feel your  pain,  i lost my dad of just 47 way back in 1990 due to a sudden heart attack which just came out of the blue, then last december on the 27th i lost my mum of  seventy four of ovarian cancer for which we did not know she had, its a sneaky silent cancer that you do not get any symptoms untill the dam thing reaches a advanced stage, my mum was diagnosed late stage four, where it had already spread and could not offer her any treatment she then only lasted three weeks in hospital before she passed, whats worse i read they have not found any early dectection screening for it yet, their excuse is that it is hard to detect in the early stages because symptoms are so vague, mum also was in remission from early stage breast cancer since 2011, but at the end of day no matter what that bloody cancer comes  back. and i have some people say mum was  young when you tell them whats happened and  i know i lot of people have died of this diease much younger, so it makes me angry, eight months on it  feels raw since mum passed and now at the age of fourty five i am parentless and it is a good job i have three older sisters to rely on to get me thorugh it all, i hope in time you can do the same, life must go on i know, but it is hard, take care oggi