Hi Powla ....... I just wanted to welcome you to the forum. I am sorry to see that you got no replies to your post and it will now be 'bumped' up to the first page again so hopefully others in your situation may come along to offer you support.
I am so very sorry to hear of your loss, I cant imagine how you must be feeling. I am sure you suffer daily but, as it nears the first anniversary of your fiancee's passing, it must be particularly painful. If you feel you would like to tell us a little more of your story, it sometimes helps to write it down.
Glad Max 'bumped you up'. I think because we have just had a bank holiday weekend there may have been lless 'browsers' visiting the forum.
I am sorry to read that you have lost your fiance to cancer. I joined the forum myself for support during my husband's journey and a bit newer to my loss (just four months ago). There will be a good few readers who can understand your sadness especially as you approach the first anniversary and I am sure the past 11 months have been hard as your grieve for your loved one. Hope you have family support during this period of time but have found that writing my thoughts/ feelings down has sometimes helped to understand my own emotions. Plenty of wobbles along the way, shared tears with family and friends (and sometimes alone when you just cannot control the emotional fall out). Its hard to find the right words but I do take comfort from knowing my husband is free from the pain and the physical limits his cancer bought him and I know the memories made (and I am sure you have many too) are carrying me along just now. Any time you would like to chat just drop in and if and when you are ready you could share a little more of your story. Kind regards Jules54
