While i was under going treatment for cancer i ended up in hospital with a massive blood clot in my lung, while in hospital i met a lady called Julie who was in with sepsis we got talking as i had been in 3 weeks earlier with the same thing. This last.year a friendship has formed and we knew we could call each other and talk about anything we couldnt say to family, i was given the clear from cancer in November but continued to be there for Julie who was still fighting her battle with cancer. I had a phone call from her husband last weekend to say she has suddenly passed away, i now am feeling very sad & guilty because i managed to come out the other end and Julie never made it, i will also miss my chats with her as she totally understood, something i am sure many of you will relate to. I know i will come to terms with this in the near future. Just life is so unfair. Jos
I think your post sums up how so many of us feel when we lose someone special in our lives. Though not a cancer sufferer myself, whilst on my husband's journey I also had a close friend whom herself was dealing with cancer (had been for over 23 years on and off). My friend was a remarkable lady whomI had known since we both were carrying our first children and who also, despite her own illness, found the compassion to show support to us. It is coming up to the anniversary of her passing (May) and is still sadly missed (the more so by her husband and three boys and grandchildren).
I hope that the time you had knowing Julie will remain a special memory in the days/weeks/years ahead. I understand your guilt and sadness but try, in time, to turn that into feeling lucky to have been there for each other and I am sure she would have enjoyed those chats just as much as you did.
The forum is a great place to offload and am sure others here will relate to your feelings and be along to add their thoughts.
Later today I am away for a few days break with my daughter and family as we try to come to terms with our own grief but will be happy to chat on my return (Friday) if you feel able to share your feelings virtually.
Sending you best wishes for your continued good health. Jules54
