Hi, I lost one sister 4 weeks after I got married 25 years ago, to Breast Cancer (she was 32), and my eldest sister 2 years ago from the same thing, she made it to 56. I have had it too, 9 years ago and I'm now 52. I have one sister left but we don't get on. Both my parents have died. Father in Law died of Prostate Cancer 6 years ago. My best friend and sister in law died when she went into hospital for a laparoscopy and the surgeon cut her aorta and she bled to death on the operating table when she was 40. Is someone trying to tell me something? I am finding it really difficult to continually handle all this death. Is this really what I was put on this earth to deal with? If there are any celebrations in the family they are always marred by the fact that none of my family is left. As time goes on I keep thinking of my children and if they are going to be affected by cancer (obviously they are affected emotionally already). And whether they think about marrying someone who doesnt have it in their family etc etc. I just sometimes feel desperate. Anyone else feel like this?
