Hi

Personally I think you are perfectly normal and losing your Dad has just made you extra aware of cancer as a disease and as its approaching the anniversary of your Dad's passing the word Cancer is at the forefront of your mind.  It seems that once we have a loved and lost someone with Cancer (or any illness to be fair) we seem to see and hear about it  everywhere. Sometimes we would just like it all to go away and get that normal feeling back but we are now living a 'new normal' (I lost my husband at the beginning January and thus my children lost their Dad so can understand some of your emotions).  I bet your little girl is gorgeous and new Mums tend to worry about them naturally.  If  you are making yourself ill with worry it could be a good idea to chat to your GP/health visitor and they can give you some guidance. No one really knows what the future holds for them but do remember you carry your Dad in your heart and in time will share lovely memories with your own daughter. Wishing you all the very best.Jules54

Hi and welcome here = I think all of us here can relate to your feelings. When the diagnosis is Mr. C. = then a new part of life starts. Its all normal and you can find help on youtube listening to Tara Bruch's self compassion talks. These reassure that feelings of change are normal in this World. You have to be strong for your little one and others = yet feeling flakey inside. Let us here suround you with love for today

Thinking of you and your family

Steven xx