Hi Beryl,

Hope you are okay. I have been thinking about you recently, like I have about a lot of my virtual friends on here. I hope your family have been able to help you get through this difficult time of year. We have had a quiet but enjoyable time but both me and Mrs B both missed our parents. Losing someone we love leaves such a big hole in our lives and it must have been very difficult time for you.

Do take care will talk again soon Brian.

Hi Beryl I can honestly say that I know what you are going through my heart goes out to you god bless, hugs xxx

Hello my lovely forum friends

Firstly a very happy new year to you all and secondly many thanks for your help and support and very kind words over this last year.  Christmas was a very emotional time, although I gritted mt teeth and planted a smile on my face and New Year was just as difficult as my lovely David loved New Years Eve but nevertheless I got through it as did my children.

Brian

So lovely to hear from you I am so glad you had a nice time with your wife, treasure those moments Brian the are very precious.

Mickied

Lovely to hear from you and I do hope you and your family had a lovely Christmas

Dawn

Thank you so much for your kind words I am thinking of you take care

Love and hugs to you all

Beryl xxxx

Hi Beryl,

I do understand how you had to grit your teeth and plant a smile on your face over the festive period. I will do as you say and  I will treasure the memories I am making at the moment. Cancer has taught me time is very precious and these days I only do things I enjoy doing.

I do hope you have not suffered any damage as a result of the weather. Our garden was flooded yesterday and it was so dark at time we had to put the lights on as I could not see my keyboard. I did have to laugh yesterday. I looked out of our window and saw this young boy of about 3 to 4 yrs old. There was a great big puddle about two to three inches deep and nearly ten feet long covering the main footpath that runs past our place. He ran ahead of his mother and ran straight through the middle of it, and obviously enjoyed it so much he ran back through it again. His mother was trying hard to walk round the edge as much as she could when he ran back through it a third time but as he got next to his mother he jumped and splashed water all over his poor mother. She was not amused but he thought it was good fun. It took me back to my early days as I also loved jumping in puddles.

Anyway I have rambled enough for one day Beryl. Do take care and I wish you all the very best for 2014, Brian 

Hi Brian

I do hope you are well and a very happy new year to you, I must apologise for not writing but I have been quite poorly with a cough and heavy cold.   The start of the year has found me being very lazy and not at all motivated which annoys me as I had high hopes in deciding that I was going to do something positive which I haven't I seem to stay in my dressing gown longer these days.  I still miss my lovely David and this I think is half my problem I really have to move on and I don't seem to be doing so.  The weather doesn't seem to help either or is this just an excuse for my laziness could be.

Anyway Brian enough of my rambling I do hop Mrs B is ok and would you believe Brian still comes into my garden to see me I still feed him his nuts and watch out for his attacks of Brianitis.

Take care Brian

Love and hugs

Beryl xxx

Hi Beryl,

So pleased to hear from you and I wish you a very happy new year too. Beryl, you do not have to apologise, I had that cough for ages back a few months ago. I think the weather is so depressing at the moment it doesn't give us much enthusiasm to do much at all, at least that's my excuse. Don't be too hard on yourself Beryl, It's still early days after losing your David. It takes time and you may never completely get over losing him, but the pain will get less in time as you learn to adjust to a life without him. I say that Beryl but he will always be with you for your memories of the special love you had together will always be with you.

I have included a picture of me eating my nuts, hope you like the self portait.

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Take care Beryl thinking of you, Brian

Hi Beryl,

Just want to wish you a New Year filled with hope.  I do relate to how difficult this time of year is and how hard it is to try and move forward.  I found the whole of December difficult and like you say this weather coupled with it getting dark so early doesn't help.  I was lucky enough to get away for Christmas and New Year which was the best thing for me this year, it was still difficult but the best it could be.  Going back to work today was a positive as I find doing the normal things I used to do seems to help a bit.  I really wish you strength to find some positives this year Beryl, you will always miss your lovely David and I know that nobody can take away the pain for you, but I hope you are able to find something good in each day and that you can smile again.  Take care.  Hope x

Hi Beryl

Just wanted to add my best wishes for 2014.  My hubby also has cough and cold (b.... nuisance!!) and the weather puts a damp squib on anything you might like to do.  Am sure you feel like you have been through the wringer with all the emotions that this time of year brings but I think your David would be very proud of you.Hope your children/grandchildren still giving you some good days.  Take care, Julesxxx

Hi Brian

Many thanks for the picture of you eating the nuts, my Brian looks just like the picture you sent me only my Brian's tail isn't as bushy,  the weather here is awful , but after a day of crying I am very annoyed with myself just now and I need to get up and fight  again.  This is what I seem to do these days two steps forward and four back however, Brian you always manage to cheer me up and I am so grateful to you for this.   This cough is driving me mad so hopefully it will go soon  I send you and Mrs B all  my love and hugs xxx

Hello Jules

lovely to hear from you so sorry hubby has this awful  bug  a very happy 2014 to you and I do hope you are still enjoying your new baby.  I do hope you had a lovely Christmas with your family I spent Christmas with my son and daughter.  I had to have that stiff upper lip at times but was pleased I got through it all.  I am desperately trying to move on but just lately I think I am failing miserably.  I do miss my lovely David so much and at times the pain is unbearable but who knows maybe one day I will be happy.   Take care my live to you as always xxx

Hi Hope

A very happy new year to you and I do hope Christmas wasn't too difficult for you it is this time of the new year we are at our most vulnerable the dark nights and miserable weather etc.  After a day of crying and feeling very annoyed with myself for feeling like this I have decided I must really try harder to move on as my lovely David would be so cross with me.  I do hope your pain is easing darling and I send you all my love and hugs xxxxx

Take care my lovely friends

Love always

Beryl xxxxx

Hi Beryl,

I am so sorry that today has been a bad day for you, but you musn't feel annoyed with yourself for crying.  This time of year is so hard for those of us grieving, I spent the whole weekend between Christmas and New Year constantly crying, to the extent that I thought something was wrong with me and that I'd gone backwards.  Then I realised that what our lovely friend Brian told me on here was true, that crying is nature's safety valve; if we don't let it out we explode, and for me I felt better after a good cry - that is until it builds up again I expect.  It's especially hard when you are feeling run down with a cough and cold, so be kind to yourself, I'm sure brighter days will come.  Hope x