I lost my Dad two days ago from bile duct cancer  and I’m reaching out because I just feel completely numb.

I’ve spent the last six weeks by his side, but the end was so much harder than I ever expected. It was horrible to watch the agitation and the struggle. Those are the images stuck in my head right now, and I’m finding it so difficult to move past them.

Now that it’s over, I just feel hollow. I’m going to miss him so much. I just want to get to a place where I can remember him as he was, rather than the way things were at the very end.

Has anyone else felt this total numbness after watching a loved one struggle so much? How do you cope with the shock of those final moments