Welcome to the forum Jeannie1970 although I'm very sorry to hear your mother passed away from lung cancer 2 years ago. You have my sincerest condolences for your loss.

With your mother having been such a big part of your life, I can't begin to imagine how difficult it must have been to see her take her last breath and say goodbye but I can assure you that you are not alone in feeling this way as so many of our members who have been carers for their parents or loved ones for such a long period of time will completely understandable your struggles and hopefully some of them will be along soon to offer their support and advice.

I'm not sure from your post if you have tried bereavement counselling before but if you haven't and would like to find out more, do take a look at the Cruse Bereavement and Sue Ryder websites. Many of our members who have explored this route found it really beneficial to be able to talk to someone about everything they have gone through, so this may be something you want to explore if you feel it may help you with your grief.

Do also speak to your GP as well to find out what other support, especially in your local area, may be available to you.

Coping with grief is so difficult but you've been very brave by opening up to us Jeannie, and I hope you're able to get the support you need to help you find a way through this.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator