Hello Rach05

I'm so very sorry to hear about the loss of your Dad just a few short weeks ago. Grief is a natural process, but it can be overwhelming and you're certainly not being selfish in sharing your struggles. What you are experiencing is undoubtedly very difficult, and I know many members will understand that losing a parent hits differently than other losses that we might experience in our lives. 

You mention in your post that your Mum is also living with a terminal cancer diagnosis. I hope that you're both being well supported by her care team, whether that is at the hospital or from the community palliative care or district nurses. 

I wish there were some magic words that I could offer to make life easier in the here and now but unfortunately, I know that there isn't. All I can say is that this journey with grief will have many ups and downs, and all you can do is take each day at a time. If a day feels like too much, then go hour by hour is those very difficult moments. Keep putting a foot forward and there will eventually come a time when the raw grief that you're feeling now changes to something not quite so heavy. 

I know that there are lots of members here in the Cancer Chat community who have found help and support from bereavement services. This might be through a national charity such as Marie Curie or Cruse, or it may be that there is a Maggie's centre in your local area where you can pop in for a cuppa and chat with one of their support workers. 

You are of course, most welcome to keep posting here on the forum if it helps to have a safe space to put down in writing how you're feeling. We're here for you Rach05. 

Sending you my very best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator