It’s only day 6.  I know early days.  But it’s hard to accept. She was a mother of 3.  Youngest 10.  She fought for 5 years and until her last breath.  It was hard to see what the disease did to her in final days and I’m just so heartbroken right now.  I was with her in her final moments but not when she passed and I’m so angry and said at the same time.  How long does it take one to ever be ok again.