Hello Soph345

I'm so sorry to hear about the recent loss of your Grandad. It's clear from your post that you loved him very much. It's understandable that you've been struggling with the rollercoaster of emotions after all that you have been through over the last few months. 

Grief is a natural process, but it can be overwhelming at times. We have some information on our website about coping with grief that might help you to understand a little of what you're feeling at the moment. 

It can be a huge help to talk with others about how you're feeling. I'd really encourage you to chat with your Mum and Nan. I'm sure that they will be experiencing similar thoughts and feelings as well and it may help all three of you as you journey with this grief to share things with each other. 

If you think it might help to talk with someone outside of your family and friends, then there are a number of charities such as Marie Curie, Cruse and Maggie's who all provide a range of bereavement support services both in person and over the phone. It's also worth talking with your GP about how you're feeling so that they can offer any support that many be appropraite to help you manage your mental health. 

Undoubtedly this is a difficult time for you Soph345. Take each day at a time and if sometimes a day feels too much then take it hour by hour. Grief is a heavy load to carry and it can be both physically, mentally and emotionally exhausting. Rest when you need to and be kind to yourself. Reach out to those around you, or post here in the Cancer Chat community, when you want to connect with others. 

Sending you and your family our best wishes at this difficult time, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator