Hello Wonderwoman69

I'm so very sorry to hear that you lost your husband just over a year ago to cancer. I can hear the love that you have for him in the post that you've shared with us here at Cancer Chat. It's understandable that you're feeling so very overwhelmed by the emotions and thoughts that you're experiencing, especially as you've recently had the first anniversary of his death

Grief is a natural process, but it can be overwhelming. It's good to hear that you've had lots of support from friends and family since your husband passed away. Having that love and support around you can be so valuable. As you've said, though, sometimes we feel that we don't want to burden or worry our loved ones, and this is where professional bereavement support can be useful. I know that many of the members here at Cacner Chat have shared how valuable they found it to share their thoughts and feelings in a safe space through bereavement counselling. 

I don't know if this is something you've already explored, Wonderwoman69 but there are a number of organisations that offer different ways of bereavement support. You might find it helpfu lto look at the Marie Curie and Cruse websites. If there is a Maggie's in your local area, then you can also contact or visit them to talk with one of their cancer support specialists. Your GP surgery will also know what bereavement services are available in your local area. 

Taking things a day at a time is a good approach as you continue on this journey with grief. And sometimes, if a day feels too much, then taking it hour by hour is OK as well. 

Continue to reach out for support Wonderwoman69 and it sounds like you will find the help you need to continue to move forward on this new path. 

Sending you my best wishes at this difficult time, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator