I lost my husband 6 months ago to gallbladder cancer we were married for 22 years , he passed away 2 weeks after diagnosis. I have been coping with life, I say coping basically going through the motions. The first 3 months, I think I was just numb and dealt with things with no emotion, then reality kicks in, I have days when you put on a brave face, go to work, meet friends, go to family events, but all the time inside the pain is tearing me apart. I miss every part of our life together, but even the small things like not being able to call to say something funny happened at work or what shall we have for dinner are so difficult. Then out of nowhere this wave has hit me, I cant stop crying, I can just be sat at my desk and tears just stream down my face, or in the car, there doesn't even have to be a trigger. Having read other posts I know im not alone in feeling like this, but I feel the grief more now than in the immediate days after his passing. I just miss him so so much.
