I am so sorry to hear your story. I am sure she will help you. We all believe different things but I believe in miracles. She wouldn't want you upset. I have prostate cancer. I remember vividly the night my mother passed over. She is sometimes in my dreams. I wrote a book some years ago. Same title as my user name. I was with my mums mum when she passed and that experience changed my life forever hence the book. Remember things get better over time. I can tell you from experience just remember she would want the best for you. I will pray she helps you too.