It’s nearly been 6 months without my mum and I feel worse. I’m tired, exhausted mentally and physically and just have no desire to ‘play’ with my kids. I’m so snappy at them and it’s so wrong.
I’m also a performing arts teacher at a secondary school 3 days a week and I’ve lost the love and enthusiasm for that. My therapist says I need time now to focus on me and found out who I am. My mum and I were inseperable. Did everything together.
I just don’t know what to do anymore…..something needs to change as I feel I’m hitting a brick wall.
I would give up work but I know I will never get a job like it……I want a job where I can be there for my kids drop off pick up and school holidays but there isn’t one…..
I genuinely thought I would feel better but I feel worse! My mum died so suddenly. March hip pain….april broke her hip found out she had lung cancer…..May she passed away.
It’s 9am and I’m struggling to get out of bed.
I just want to be happy!