I lost my grandma to cancer last year and really struggling as we were close. Struggling to come to terms with it and feel isolated as not many people understand. It was hard to see her deteriorate and through pain!
I'm sorry to hear that you lost your Grandma to cancer last year. Understandably it will have been a difficult time for you.
Grief is a natural process but it can be overwhelming. I know that many of the forum members here have shared that bereavement support or counselling has been something that they've found really helpful whilst on their journey with grief. I don't know if this is something that you've already explored but it's something to consider if you haven't. Sometimes having a supportive listening ear can really help to unpick our thoughts and feelings and begin to process the experiences that we've had. There is a national charity called Cruse that offers bereavement support but you can also speak with your GP surgery about other services that may be available in your local area. You might also find it helpful to have a look at the information on the Marie Curie website about bereavement support.
I do hope that you can access the support you need.
