Really struggling at the moment, I was diagnosed with breast cancer 2 years ago age 37, had surgery, chemotherapy, radiotherapy and 1 year of targeted therapy, My body didn’t cope well with the treatment at all , I had neutropenic sepsis twice , blood clots in my lung , 2 blood transfusions and that was just some of the struggles I had ,March 2024 just 3 weeks before my final targeted therapy my dad was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer which was advanced and untreatable, dad passed away on the 21st August 2024 , watching him suffer for 5 months , holding his hand as he took his last breath, seeing him at the chapel of rest and then his funeral 4 weeks ago , my heart broke completely, I miss him so much, I’m not sleeping great , my moods not good which I was already struggling with from taking tamoxifen, I’m just physically and mentally drained and just feel very lost without dad , I look back at the last 2 years and just can’t believe everything that has happened.