Hello sd.1234.  I know it's only words, but I am so sorry for your loss.  There is nothing that anyone can say or do that will make you feel better, because grief is something that can not be taken away.  The only thing that I can tell you is that eventually, there will be some normality that returns to your life.  I don't believe that we ever completely get over losing the people that we love, but somehow, some way, we get through it, and there comes a point when the pain is no longer as raw and overwhelming as it once was. One day, you will be able to remember your Auntie and smile at all of the wonderful memories that she has left you.  You and your Mum need time to process your loss, and this won't happen overnight.  Grief is a process, and sadly, there are no short-cuts.  I understand that you don't want your Mother to feel sad.  It is hurting you to see how hurt your Mother is, and you want to take away her pain.  Why not speak to your Mother about it?  She might welcome the opportunity to talk to you about how she is feeling, and likewise, you can tell her how you are feeling.  You have both suffered huge losses recently and talking to each other about it could really be beneficial to both of you.  Once again, so sorry for your loss, and believe me when I say that I truly do know how you feel, xx