Hi, I’m new here. Two weeks ago my mum went into hospital. She had been waiting for a gyne appointment since November. But two weeks ago was in so much pain drs called an ambulance. She had scans and blood tests and it was found that she had cancer. A 15cm mass in one ovary. That had ruptured the ovary.  The cancer had already spread to her bones and blood. She had days to live. She was lucid at that time but within days she was no longer my mum. I stayed with her because I didn’t want her to be alone or die alone. Within a week she had kidney failure. Blood clots in both lungs. And several infections in her body. She began to throw up black fluid. This lasted for several more days. Until she had a tube put into her nose. One in her throat. It was horrific. I could not let her be alone because she had never once let me be alone. Two days ago she passed away. I’m so angry. So many times we tried to get a dr to see her about the waiting list it gyne. Because her symptoms were worsening. But it seemed nobody would listen. We couldn’t even get an appointment. And now she is just gone. She suffered. It was horrific. Four times the battery went in her syringe driver and she was left without pain relief for over an hour each time. She was screaming. I can’t make myself believe she has passed away. I cannot get the images of the past week of her life out of my head. I’m just sat. In complete disbelief.