Loss of my wife

It's 2.30 in the morning iam awake again my wife was diagnosed  with colon and liver cancer on Jan 4th and died on the 22 of Jan  it was stage 4 and was told it would be that she had only months to ve i was only just coming to terms with this when she suddenly took a turn for the worst and rushed into hospital where she die that night I am trying to be strong but am finding it difficult as i r g round all our friends and family to break the news its now very strange at home so quite not having my wife calling out for help with her every day tasks but I have great family who are rallying r nd me and helping me come to terms with my loss I wish everyone who has too deal  with a loved one can relie on their family at this terrible time RIP NY wife