Hi Brianax

I am so truly sorry for your loss first of all. Both you and your mother should have more time together and it is very unfair she's gone. I am sure though that you already have lovely memories with her that you'll carry with you all your life. It is still very early days and everyone grieves differently. My experience is that it is an extremely painful time, hard to grasp even as a concept but gets better with time. I lost my mother 19 months ago and I was suffering mentally to the point of hardly being functional for the first 16 months. I was very close to my mother and I miss her immensely. But what I now feel has changed. There are of course tough days but there's a sweet feeling now when I think of her, talk to her, look at pictures, remember things we did together or something funny.

You carry your mother inside you, you know what she would reply if you asked her something, you can see her laughing etc. Of course, she's not physically around but in a way you can still keep the relationship. It is not going to be easy but there are people out there who can support you. I reached out to a therapist too and it helped a bit. Are you close to the rest of your family, do you have a closest friend you'd like to be around? You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to, but being in the company of a kind close friend or relative might help. You will always miss her and if you're feeling this pain now is because you've been blessed to love someone so much. It does get better with time and you are still very young and so much good awaits you! Your mother will always be a part of you.

Take good care of yourself xx