Hi mate.

I'm in my late 40's, and my wife was diagnosed around 20 months ago (maybe. My memory is hazy at best due to everything that has went on, so might be a month or 2 out either way) with BC.

Whilst she is still here, your story still hits hard as i can see my own history with both my wife and myself in your description. I really don't have much in the way of words of wisdom or even comfort to share because I've barely held it together myself.

Just want to say, I hear you, and I hope you do find that bit of peace. I'd also like to add, you're not being "me, me, me ..." at all. Better to vent somewhere than to keep all this stuff in. I have used these forums as an outlet too. Many people do. No one will judge you on here as we've walked the walk too.