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I feel so low and miss my dad more than anything

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Lost my dad 6 months ago but had the most awful nightmare last night, I couldn't find him. I'm heartbroken and just need my dad here. Trying to be ok and being busy so I can't think but sometimes it's too overwhelming. Love him so much and miss him more every day

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    Hi RD,

    I'm sorry you are struggling. It must have been very upsetting and disorienting to have a nightmare about your Dad.

    It is coming up to six months since I lost my lovely Dad and I think about him constantly throughout the day. I have also been keeping busy which does help but I still cry several times a day. 

    Do you have supportive family and friends? Have you considered speaking to someone like a councellor? You don't have to answer but I know how completley isolating and overwhelming the grief is and i hope you have a support system. 

    I love and miss my Dad too. I didn't think it possible to love him anymore than I already did but I do. 

    You are not alone. 

    X

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    Hi Lulu86,

    Thank you so much for your reply,  I'm sorry for the loss of your Dad too, it's so hard isn't it, especially as we love them so much.

    I usually keep so busy to stop thinking about what has happened but sometimes I can't bear it and it's totally overwhelming how upset I feel, it's like I can't breathe.  My son was with me and my mum when dad passed away, it had been an upsetting week, I feel I dont want to burden my mum, who is trying her best to be ok and my son, who is coping in his own way. I did wonder about counselling but not sure it will help. 

    Take care and I appreciate you taking time to reply to me 

    X 

     

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    Hi RD,

    Thank you. That has been my plan, keep as busy as I can but I still find myself thinking about my Dad all the time. I find night time particularly tough, although I feel I have been on a slightly more even keel since Easter (grief completley debilitating) I have still cried myself to sleep the last few nights. It is completely overwhelming and the finality of it all seems unbearable when I think about it for too long. It sounds a bit simplistic and it's not always possible but I try to just get through today, although thoughts of what Dad will miss out on play on my mind. 

    I don't have a wide support network. Friends and extended family have stopped asking how I am and I haven't been forthcoming with wanting to meet up with people so I think that also makes people stop checking in. My Dad and I were so alike and I could talk to him about anything but it isn't the same with my mum. She doesn't know what to say and my brother and mum are affected differently. 

    I was seeing a councellor weekly at first and then monthly since losing Dad. I have stopped going now as I don't feel like there is anything more that can help me. I always knew that losing Dad would decimate me and the councellor took some pressure off as I felt like I was helping myself. I now think that the grief will be with me forever but hopefully I will get more stretches where I feel my Dad with me and I feel spurred to carry on with life rather than defeated. 

    Always here if you want to chat. 

    Xx

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