I'm sorry to hear this. The loss of a parent is difficult so I can understand that you are finding things hard. It's important to talk about how you feel with the poeple you trust and Cruse bereavement helpline 0808 808 1677, if you want to have a confidential talk.
There is advice on ways of coping here and Cancer Chat is always here for you whenver you need it.
I hope this is helpful in some way and best wishes to you,
