Hello Oreotrio, 

I am so sorry to hear you are finding it so difficult at the moment but well done for taking the difficult step to reach out and see if you could have counselling. Coping with Grief is by no means easy and the two things that help the most are time and support. Grief counselling can really help and I hope that the doctor rang back and had some good suggestions for you. You mentioned you are finding it hard to move forward in the last few days but taking these steps to seek help takes a lot of courage and is a step in the right direction. Make sure you talk to your counsellor and your doctor about those feelings you describe here, the feeling of being here but not really being here and all those dark thoughts running through your mind. 

Other members of our community know exactly what is going through your mind at the moment as you are struggling to cope with grief and I hope they will be along shortly and share their stories with you and give your words of comfort to help you get through this difficult time. 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator