My beloved father Trevor

I lost my father/soulmate on Friday evening 3/3/2023 he battled prostate cancer for around 11 years we done everything together holidays our favourite team Bishops Stortford fc we followed all over the country we went to music festivals I have hundreds of pictures right up to the day he passed on Friday just 2 days ago 

he was given only 6 months to live back in September 2022 I put everything in to looking after him in November 2022 my mother who also has cancer is in a care home me and dad decided it was getting very difficult at home after looking after him all over Christmas 2022 in to the new year we decided to try get my father to be with my mother around the 5th of February we managed this request of my father Trevor I went there 3-4 times a day and stopped most nights on a mattress next to him in the last week of my fathers life on Friday evening around 9pm his breathing become worse I knew then that evening he was going to sadley loose the fight around 11.10 I asked the care staff a lovely lady can you please get my mum please we was both by his bedside mum holding his hand and on his last moments of breath I kissed him and said thanks for everything you have done for me love you dad we will meet again god bless dad we did our best 

my dad knew I was there until the very end because his mind never went just his body I knew because 20 minutes before his passing I put a clock on the wall next to him and said dad what's the time he gave a little look then 20 minutes later he passed it is so sad to see but when me and mum left I felt absolutely no guilt I felt a sense of I done all I could until the very very end and my father pretty much until a few hours told me I have a great comfort in this but the loss of him not around will be so hard I spent and lived with him at our same address in Bishops Stortford Hertfordshire for 48 years all my life my father died age 82 I even brought our little dog Minnie a chiwaha to the care home he love little Minnie she helped comfort him in his last weeks I have the photos which give me a sense of my job looking after my father is done literally only 20 minutes after his passing i cleared his room out with everything I brought in lights vases clothes I covered him up to his little chin left the daffodils and orchids next to my father kissed him good night said see you soon god bless shut the door and felt a sense of I have completed my goal and job the best I could for my father 

so if you have the strength be there for your loved ones until the very very end it will help in the future for your mind knowing you and your loved one done the best possible god bless dad never be forgotten 

vince 

Parents
  • I am so sorry to hear of your father's passing. I lost my mother last month to cancer and like your father I was with her as she died, and as difficult as it is for us to watch a parent die, as you say it is good to leave it in a good place with no regrets or guilt. We gave it our best and that's all we can do, and it's good that you share that mindset.

    It will be so difficult without your father but I know that things will truly get better. Thinking of you and wishing you all the best in the weeks and months ahead.

  • Thank you so much I saw the long journey out until the very end and felt comfort in knowing my father knew this until the very end I have personal photos and videos of my father at the care home in his short 5 weeks there which I will keep for ever more I know I will be with my father always he knows that 

    thank you god bless you 

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  • Thank you so much I saw the long journey out until the very end and felt comfort in knowing my father knew this until the very end I have personal photos and videos of my father at the care home in his short 5 weeks there which I will keep for ever more I know I will be with my father always he knows that 

    thank you god bless you 

Children
  • I'm really glad to hear that, it's so comforting knowing that there's nothing left unsaid and we aren't left wondering, I know that's how I felt when my mum died after I had been by her side the whole time. Remember that you always have those memories, photos and videos with your father and nothing can ever take those away from you and it will bring you a lot of comfort knowing that your father knew everything you wanted to say.

    If you ever need a chat please feel free to reach out and message me. At this stage everything will feel so raw but once the dust settles do remember that there are people out there who are always willing to listen and who understand everything that you are and will be feeling.