My dad died 2 months ago after a 2 year battle of stage 4 colon cancer . I feel very lonely in this moment as I live in a different country to where my dad was . My mother and my brother got to see him everyday they were involved in every step of the way ,I tried to go see him more than a couple of weeks in 2 years but he never wanted me to go ,either blaming it on me having a special needs child to take care of or that I didn't need to go because he wasn't dying yet .. I didn't have a bad relationship with him he just didn't like me going there (even before getting ill) . Anyway ,we had a very good relationship especially during my childhood and 1 month before dying he told me I'm kind and patient like his mother and not to let my brother and mom trick me out of money . 
Now that he's gone my brother and mother relationship strengthen even more ,he's more similar to her whereas I was more similar to my dad . My mom often talks about him and how  often my brother cries and how HE's suffering mind you he was very mean to him even when he was very sick and bedbound ,used sarcasm and wind him up by doing the opposite of what he asked ,during this period my dad was very agitated and angry he was going through a very hard moment when he lost alot of his bodily functions . Me missing my dad gets dismissed a lot ,I often get comments like "you were not here as much as your brother he saw him everyday " I texted my brother today saying I miss dad he replied "everybody does " . This "everybody" made me feel like he dismissed my feelings as my dads  daughter as if I'm being clumped with everyone else . I thought it was detached and cold . My mother always speaks highly of my brother how great and ruthless ar his career is and how successful he is and how much money he makes . She never seems to value me as a person ,my feelings are being dismissed even during this hard time .