I'm 58 and lost my dad to cancer 5 years ago, went into hospital with breathing difficulty and died 2 weeks later, never even got to say goodbye, lost mum 2 years ago, dads death pushed her fast into dementia and she died 2020 of covid whilst in carehome we couldn't visit. In 2021 I had cancer diagnosis, apart from all the doom and gloom, I found I was holding everything in from my dad and everything that came after and struggled to cope, I think you need to go talk to someone, air you grief, will it stop it ..of course not but it will help come you  to terms with ur loss and how to live with it xxxx I'm so very sorry for ur loss xx

I'm 58 and lost my dad to cancer 5 years ago, went into hospital with breathing difficulty and died 2 weeks later, never even got to say goodbye, lost mum 2 years ago, dads death pushed her fast into dementia and she died 2020 of covid whilst in carehome we couldn't visit. In 2021 I had cancer diagnosis, apart from all the doom and gloom, I found I was holding everything in from my dad and everything that came after and struggled to cope, I think you need to go talk to someone, air you grief, will it stop it ..of course not but it will help come you  to terms with ur loss and how to live with it xxxx I'm so very sorry for ur loss xx