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Hello my lovely ,I'm so sorry to read of your sorrow of the passing of your beloved mum at such a young age.

Grief hits us all at some point in our life,and we all experience it in different ways, there is no wrong or right way to grieve, its a personal thing to each of us. That's why it's so hard to deal with,while going through our grief we think others around us don't understand us,and we can think why,why can't people see through me,see how im just going through the motions ,letting people think im doing ok,im handling my grief,when really were not coping aa well as we'd hoped we would, and we think why dont they see this ,ecspecialy family and close friends who we thought would see through us and see the hurt and pain,we're still feeling. I've just laid my mum to rest on the 9th November 2022, and these were some of my thoughts. 

But if I'm honest and try to answer that question I've been asking myself ,I truly believe its because its my grief, its my thoughts, my sweet memories and the thought ill never be able to see or call my mum ,on this earth that's causing me to feel this way. And I honestly do think,thier grief is  also being hidden some what too. I guess it's a coping mechanism to look normal to the outside world,to people that don't  know we've lost someone very dear to us. I can understand all your thoughts ,and how they will make you feel as you do,but don't beat yourself up,its your grief,and there is no time on when your grief starts or eases up. I can also understand how sad your feeling as your mum was a lot younger than mine,I do feel for you,and understand how you feel at losing your mum so young.  But your so right in saying your precious mum,would not want you to feel the way your feeling now ,but to be honest your mum would understand as to why you are. So don't try to beat yourself up over these thoughts too,don't try  to hurry your grief you may not even realuse your doing so, it's not a nice feeling it really isn't.  But grieving as you and I are is a big part of the healing process of the hurt  we are feeling . I know right now your probably dreading Christmas, dreading New year,dreading birthdays ,anniversary, I know I am. But I think to myself, I have my precious memories, yes they do hurt,but I also have to remember  that those memories include many happy ,funny moments that I had with my mum,and I know I will always  have a part of my mum in me,which is a great comfort.  And I tell myself I was lucky enough to have a good relationship with my mum,I knew my mum loved us all,as we did mum. Not evetyone is lucky enough to have this,so I'm eternally grateful for my mum,and the love she gave us all. I do believe the spirit lives on,and that itself is a great comfort.  

Anyway I'm here if you need a chat, I do pop on from time to time . Big hugs sent your way   xxx

Thank you so much for taking the time to write me such a beautiful message. I'm so sorry to hear about your mum's passing ♥️ it's so recent for you, so I'm truly sorry. No matter what age you lose your mum, a mum is a mum. But the way you speak gives me an insight into how your mum would have been, and I'm sure she's already transformed into one of the angels in heaven♥️.

You're right, I don't need to try and speed up my grief, I need to remember that I'm still in the early stages and for grief to pass I need to experience it. I think it's because I hate feeling this way but Ofc I would feel this way- our mum's are truly special and they need to be grieved. There's no timeline for grief, and especially since our mums are so precious, they will always be remembered. You're also right in the fact that the spirit/soul never dies, because that's exactly how I feel. I'm sure you feel your mum around you- there's no privacy anymore!!  

We do all try and act "normal" to the outside world and that's something I need to remember. I keep re reading your post because it makes a lot of sense to me. Grief is personal because only we shared those memories with our mums♥️. Xmas, new year are just around the corner, but as you said, I'll cherish the memories I had with my mum, what she taught us and embedded in us. After all, we are apart of her. 

I will feel! Thank you and the same back for you- I'm always here for a chat. Thanks for uplifting me, lots of love for you :) xx

Bless you

I have no words because as each day goes by I can't breathe. I lost my beautiful mom Thursday 13th May 2021she passed in my arms. She suffered so much from terminal cancer, I would have given anything for it to have been me xx Everday I feel I can't breathe but I know she's here with me x

Death is nothing at all

I have only slipped away into the next room

I am I and you are you

Whatever we were to each other

That we are still

Call me by my old familiar name

Speak to me in the easy way you always used

Put no difference into your tone

Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow

Laugh as we always laughed

At the little jokes we always enjoyed together

Play, smile, think of me, pray for me

Let my name be ever the household word that it always was

Let it be spoken without effort

I would give the world for 5 minutes for hug. I feel for you xxc

U1013

Hello sorry for the late reply to your lovely reply to me.

Yes evertything you and I have said is sooo true,and im.glad my reply resonated with you, as yours did to me. Thank you so much, and I know Christmas will be hard but we've got to try to enjoy it as much as we can   as I know our mums will have wanted this for us. 

You too I'm always here to chat if your having a bad day xxx

Hi sorry for the late reply,and im glad my comments on your post helped you. Thank you to you also for your lovely reply and I appreciate that a lot. 

This Christmas is going to be tough without mum,not having the usual thoughts and ideas of what to buy mum for Christmas, isn't nice at all,it just brings it all back as its not long since mum passed,although I can't believe it's been eleven weeks and four days gone by allready.  But I do feel my mum around me,I do keep past Christmas cards for crafting with,and when mum passed,i thought that I'd try to find a birthday card ( it was my birthday in November)  and a Christmas card from my mum,that my mum had sent me previously, as I know if mum was still here,I'd have received one. So I put one up on my birthday,and this year I looked through a box of old Christmas cards, and the first one I pulled out was from my mum. I felt it was definitely a sign that my mum was right beside me,and wishing me a happy Christmas.  The card I pulled out,didn't have on the front to my daughter,it was just a normal Christmas card,and inside it said to ( my nane) Merry Christmas love from Mum. My mum always used to sign her cards from mum and Roy (Roy was  her partner  who's still here) but this card that I pulled out was just from my mum ,so it was a lovely sign.

Anyway I do hope your OK,and coping with things. 

Happy Christmas to you and yours .Best wishes for 2023

Apologies for the late response, however thank you for the message! You're right, all of these eomtions are a part of this journey but as a family we will be fine xx

That poem was beautiful and made me feel emotional! You are also suffering but you are holding yourself together for your mother! I would give anything for a hug as well- i wish it for often. Prayers for you, and thank you for messaging xx p.s. she is always here with you

I apologise for the late response, I stopped receiving notifications for this! 

A belated merry christmas and happy new year to you :) 

This christmas was the first without her and also very tough so I can relate. That is so sweet that you put up a card from your mum on your birthday! I really feel for you and wil also steal this idea from you so I can do the same on my bday! The christmas card incident was no coincidence- that was your mum showing you that she is and will always be there with you, in everything you do! You have no privacy now, shes with you all the time!

I really hope things brighten up for both of us. 

X