My dad was diagnosed with bladder and lung cancer in March 2022 and he lost his fight in July on my partners 40th birthday and I feel completely lost and broken. After losing my mother in 2006 I knew I'd be okay as I had my dads support. Now I don't have either and my heart is completely broken.
I spent the last 5 months travelling 200 miles every weekend to care for him and now my weekends feel empty. I recently got diagnosed with crontic blood clots and could really do with a dad hug.
Each day seems to be harder than the last and I don't feel I can celebrate anything these days. I know time is a healer but having no parents is cruel.
I just wish the pain would go away. I miss him so much. I miss his voice, his laugh, his sarcastic comments and most of all his hugs. His hugs could fix anything.
I have no hobbies or interests as all my spare time was spent caring for my dad. At 35 I'm sure I should have more zest for life, but I don't.
