Hello RoseStarBlue

I'm glad you felt better for being able to offload your thoughts and feelings here on the forum. You're welcome to post and edit/delete any time if it helps to have this space to do it. 

Best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator 

I need to talk to other children

not children today

children of my time

but they grew up

it's the child in me has to deal with this

i need to be with another child

who lost their friend

their bestest only friend

Hello RoseStarBlue

Reading your post I had a thought and wondered if you knew about the Sue Ryder Online Bereavement Community. 

It may be another place that you're able to connect online with people who understand the grief that you're processing at the moment. 

I just thought I'd send the link for you to have a look at if you wanted to. 

Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator 

Hello RoseStarBlue

Reading your post I had a thought and wondered if you knew about the Sue Ryder Online Bereavement Community. 

It may be another place that you're able to connect online with people who understand the grief that you're processing at the moment. 

I just thought I'd send the link for you to have a look at if you wanted to. 

Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator 

Thank you, Jenn

Today I got my brain back. But I have had to box all the difficult emotions. I don't understand it. Why can people talk about some deaths without distress and yet be completely floored by another?

I cried through morning, slept afternoon and walked through evening.

I do appreciate your help. x