Hello grayhare28.  I just want to say how sorry I am for what you are going through........I know it is only words, but those of us who have lost loved ones know exactly how you are feeling right now.  The truth is, there is nothing that anyone can say or do that will take your pain away..........the only thing that I can say is to make the most of the time you have left with your nan, and remember to tell her how much you love her..........don't leave anything un-said.  There are no short cuts with grief..........it is devastating and overwhelming.............we don't get over losing the ones we love.......we get through it somehow.  Once again, so sorry for what is happening to you, your nan and the rest of your family, Violet, x