Distraught

How do I get through this. I lay next to my 15 year old daughter as she gasped her last breaths and died. 9 months treatment for a cardiac sarcoma. Open heart surgery, gruelling chemo and then during her 6 weeks proton beam therapy she developed 3 aggressive brain tumours and died 3 weeks later. We had her home for 3 weeks palliative care after she developed left side paralysis as the tumour was so big. I can't get to sleep tonight as rel-living  the sound of her gasping to breath as she lost the ability to swallow. There doesn't seem to be anyone who understands the loss of a teenager full of life and dreams. How do I get through? How does my family function without her?

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  • I am so sorry to hear your sad news, my beautiful daughter died of a brain tumour in July 2019 and it is so difficult to comprehend when they should have been living a full life and only live half and in some cases not even half. I have found after 3years that it does get a bit easier to cope, but still remember the first horrendous year after she died.  I am not the same person that I was when she was alive and healthy but she wanted me to continue living and enjoy life. It didn’t seem possible at first but now when I am feeling sad I remember her words and keep on going. Also recently I have been able to have good memories of her other than bad memories of her illness and subequent death. 

    I found it helpful to talk to somebody who had also lost their child.

    take care

    mum76

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  • I am so sorry to hear your sad news, my beautiful daughter died of a brain tumour in July 2019 and it is so difficult to comprehend when they should have been living a full life and only live half and in some cases not even half. I have found after 3years that it does get a bit easier to cope, but still remember the first horrendous year after she died.  I am not the same person that I was when she was alive and healthy but she wanted me to continue living and enjoy life. It didn’t seem possible at first but now when I am feeling sad I remember her words and keep on going. Also recently I have been able to have good memories of her other than bad memories of her illness and subequent death. 

    I found it helpful to talk to somebody who had also lost their child.

    take care

    mum76

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