My husband and soulmate passed away six years ago in September, I miss him so much but I know he can't come home. So much has happened in those 6 years family breakdown over nothing that family won't discuss no contact with grandchildren not told about impending births. Vindictive ex partner of family member and all that entails. People making comments on social media to validate themselves, I know longer use or have any social media sites. The world is changing and so many people suffering in so many ways, loss of loved ones, war, society, Nhs, cost of living and so it goes on. I have a lot to be grateful for and try everyday to remember that and most of all I will always have the love and my husband in my heart. On writing this I sound bitter something I have never felt so much since today and something I have worked so hard on not to be and my husband thank goodness knows nothing of a lot of what has gone on he would be heartbroken and motifited he also said to me days before he passed about his cancer don't let this make you bitter live live life. Its just to hard without him the emptiness and lonelyness is something I have no words for. I have good friends and family support and I appreciate them all but I feel so lost in all this. I know people and families grieve in different ways and have always accepted and respected this. I feel I am feeling sorry for myself. How do you deal with such strong emotions that the only person who could make it all go away can never do that. I don't know why I am posting this just to release my feelings I guess. I'm truly sorry for all those who are suffering in so many ways. I will i know shake it off and carry on till the next time and so the cycle goes. Take care x
