My Nan has cancer

I found out this morning. My parents told me and my brother that my Nan has cancer. Her legs have been hurting since last year but it got really bad lately, she's been in hospital for a few days and my parents found out she has cancer on Friday. I love my Nan so much, and I remember screaming and crying so much this morning. We went to the hospital but my brother and I couldn't go to see her. And I thought, "There's no way an old woman can beat cancer, this is going to kill her" and I feel like that's a fact now. I love my Nan so much, she's the best woman I've ever met and I won't be able to survive without her. She was meant to come see me perform later this year and now she can't. Every year we spend Christmas with her and we might never see her on Christmas again. I might never see her again, she could be dead right now and I won't even know. *** CANCER.