My first mother's day without my mum. She died on 3rd Feb this year. She was diognosed with iverian cancer in October last year. Then had a stroke then another while at the christie resulting in a huge clott in her arm. I fought to get her home we had 2 weeks then she died. Unfortunately her death at home was horrific iv bern doing well keeping very busy but struggling a little now. I her only daughter I have 2 elder brothers and my dad is 81. I'm struggling with changes at their house my dad is makeing I just want everything left the same as it was my mum hated change I feel like my dad wants everything that reminds him gone but that's also my childhood home so I don't want to loose the memories. She didn't want to die She had so much to luve for my daughter her only granddaughter and us kids her lufe. My dad has never given or shown her love She deseavered I'm so sad that she felt incomplete in her life she was so mad st my dad as she us 4 years younger and did everything for him and us and this is how it ended. I hate that my dad gets to go on. I'm sorry I feel this way but I do. I just want her back. Iv never been close with my dad as he was always shouting n cruel to my mum. I wish I had also said things to her before she passed but didn't want to upset her with my pain n worry so I was strong n cared for her alone with my brothers we had no help from anyone else. She was so kind it feels so wrong cancer is cruel.