Hi

Firstly, I am so sorry for your loss. I can imagine the shock and also loss is a battle. I lost my lovely Dad 6 weeks 2 days ago to Lung Cancer. I haven't accepted it yet. He was diagnosed in June 2021.

All I would say is, try and comfort yourself with the fact you were there when she passed. My Dad too passed in hospital, we planned to get him home but he was too poorly and weak, he hated being in hospital. There was 9 of us with him when he passed and I'm so grateful we could be with him, I would hate to think he was alone. You were with your Mum when she passed, she wasn't alone, don't feel guilty, at some point you might look back and being there will give you comfort. It's still very early days and all I am doing is one day at a time.

Look after yourself and don't beat yourself up.

xx