I'm so sorry to hear that you recently lost your Mum. It's understandably a very difficult time for you at the moment.
Grief is a natural process but it can be devastating, creeping up on us when we least expect it and leaving us with many, often conflicting, thoughts and feelings. It possibly feels like such a long time since your Mum passed but be kind to yourself as it's still very early days on this journey.
I don't know if you've had or been offered any kind of bereavement counselling or support but I know it's something that many of our members here have found helpful. If you think that having someone to talk to may be of help then do have a look at the Cruse website. They're a charity that is able to offer both face-to-face and online bereavement support.
You're welcome to post here if it helps to have somewhere to write down your thoughts and feelings or to chat with others who may understand how you're feeling. Grief can feel like a very lonely place to be but remember there are lots of people who are there to help if you reach out for support.
