Letter to my beloved mum...
I don't like measuring the passage of time, in fact, I resent it! But today, I cant ignore it, because its 4th March 2022 and that marks exactly 5yrs without you.
5yrs today and I still think about you every day. Your strength,Your poise,Your graciousness. Your love unconditionally, love for your family and your grandsons (best nan in the world)
Today feels like its a big one! It feels like I should be over it and moved on with my life...so wrong
Multiple people have told me this! This is moment of closure and grief, but that's not possible!
Your death has taught me as much as your time on earth did, about you, about life, about family.
There is no denying how hard its been without you, I was an adult child when you became an angel mum. I always expected we'd have more time, you'd be here with us all.
I feel like its me against the world at times. I miss you more than words and wish you were still standing in my corner.
I feel an obligation to be the best mum to my boys because you were the best mum! It would be selfish not to pass on the love and lessons ive learnt from you mum.
I see you in my dreams, I'll see you nowhere, I'll see you everywhere. Until then I'll always carry you in my heart
