This may be long so please bare with me. 

My father passed on Thursday at home. I'd been to see him Thursday afternoon and got a phone call Thursday night to say when my brother was visiting him he'd passed. I went to my parents house and at first didn't want to go in his room as I'd never seen a dead body beofre and didn't want it to be awful. After half an hour I just stood up and went to see him. He looked so peaceful and actually had a smile on his face. Apart from the yellow colour of his skin he looked better than he had in months. I sat with him for 4 hours before the funeral directors came to take him away. I was distraught when they took him as it was then more real. We are still waiting to hear when we can go see him in the Chapel of rest but I'm in two minds as to go. Is he going to look much different from when he died? Is it harder when he's in a coffin to in bed in his own home? I suffer with terrible anxiety anyway and if he looks to different or ill it'll haunt me forever. Anyone have any advice?