Hi it's Chris here I lost the love of my life a year ago to breast cancer one of the hardest things I've ever had to go through I guess I just wanted to tell people how I'm feeling. The answer is I've just been numb for a whole year constantly thinking is there a heaven will I ever see her again and I guess the truth is no one really knows. I've been doing okay I've got a 10 year old and a three year old so they keep me busy I really do see mummy in their eyes But it's so hard to stay positive move forward whatever moving forward actually means Life could be so cruel I'm just here for a chat