Hi,

I like you lost parents to cancer. It affected me greatly at first. You are still greiving and your emtions are all over the place.   No one can predict if you will get cancer or not this is just like most things in Life.  We do not have a crystal ball to tell us how life is going to be. I suggest you speak to someone about how u feel.  You must try to move forward and live your life to the full. This is what your dad would want.  Not to overthink if you might get cancer. It may happen,  it may not.  Try to do more things that please you. Get out and about and appreciate the things you have around you.  Think of the happy times with your dad.  All these good memories you have with him.  I have been where u are and it does get easier. I needed meds to help me sleep just for a short time.  Please speak to your GP about this. 

Take care

Anne