My Dad got diagnosed with Cancer in 2018. He had two operations, one live saving and he was doing really well. Out of the blue he had a brain haemorrhage due to his cancer spreading. We thought he was getting better so it was all such a shock. He lost his ability to walk and he wasn't the same after that. Lockdown caused him to detioriate and he ended up in a hospital bed at home. We had to watch him suffer for a month and there was nothing we could do to help him. I was there with my dad when he first got diagnosed and every appointment he had. I feel like I mentally went through that journey with him. I took care of him with my mum after his brain haemorrhage and everything that happened was very traumatic. I'm really struggling with everything. I lost some friends during this time too. I feel like I have no one to turn to and no one understands how I feel. I keep getting flashbacks to when he was really ill. I just am finding things really hard.