Hi, 

My dad was diagnosed with a terminal glioblastoma about a year ago and they gave him 12 months maximum. The last year has been awful watching him slowly deteriorate and trying to help even though my mother has done everything in her power to fight all the help and make it more difficult. Dad's still around, although I felt like I've grieved for him already and the tumour has obviously affected who he is outwardly and I'm finding it really hard to cope. I've ended up resenting both my mother and now him (which I feel awful about as it's not his fault obviously). Im just utterly exhausted also trying to hold down a full time job, keep my marriage together and try to give some attention to my two teenage kids. All while trying to spend time and keep engaged with him and deal with my mothers needs. 

I didn't have a very easy childhood with either of them really and have now ended up feeling like the parent to my own kids, pretty useless husband and carer and parent to my own parents now. 

I feel like I should be able to cope but I just feel like I want to run away. I'm going to go back to counselling that I had earlier this year as that might help and I've also started a course of anti depression medication. 
 

I know I'll get through this and I know others have more difficult times but has anyone else just wanted to run away from it all? I feel so selfish.