After just a couple of weeks of stomach problems in July my husband had a scan in AE and we discovered a large growth on his colon as well as cancer in his liver. He was rushed into surgery and that was when everything in our lives stopped. We have a son who is ten and a daughter who is 8 nearly nine.
Im doing everything I can to fight this and stay positive but it's tough as I have always been the fixer, the one who organises everything and my family are struggling to help me. They are looking to me to tell them what to do but I don't feel like I have any answers and just feeding the Kids and getting them to school and looking after my husband is about all I have in me.
I can't sleep tonight and I think I'm hitting a wall after 3 months of not knowing if my husband has days or weeks and now months to live. He is having chemo and will have scan after the next lot to see if it's working but it's only palliative.
I am to return to work this week and I thought I was ready but the fact I'm writing this st 3 am suggests to me that I a mess.