Hi everyone, 

so I've never really done this before but here goes so the story goes a little like this. Basically I'm 25 and my mam has recently been diagnosed with stage 3 lung cancer unexpected from a chest infection. She's on her second lot of treatment and I'm currently sat in a car park at a hospital as she's not very well. The thing is I'm really struggling with this diagnosis and caring for my mam. I currently live with her just us two and I'm waiting to start a new job (I'm a nurse) third job this year since the diagnosis. I just need some advice. So the first round of treatment I was good took her to all appointments decorated the house and managed to work full time. But this time it's different I'm struggling to be in the same room as her I find it difficult to talk about her symptoms and she feels as though I don't care and dismiss her. It's just so difficult to see anyone like that let alone your mam and not be able to do anything about it. We had an argument tonight and she feels as though I abandoned her because I like to go out in the car to clear my head. I'm just really struggling with this and I think I'm trying to pretend that she hasn't got cancer by not listening to her symptoms or shrugging them off and I do really really care it's just very difficult to hear and because I'm a nurse there's this huge expectation I know everything and can do anything you know and it's not I'm totallly put my depth here. Anyways I guess this wasn't really me asking advice just maybe me getting things off my chest a little. Cancer sucks.