I'm struggling to come to terms with everything that is happening to my family right now. In January my dad got diagnosed with chronic myeloid leukaemia. When I found out I felt like my world collapsed around me but before I could come to terms with what this now meant, both my grandad and nanny have been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer at the same time in July. Whilst my grandad has had surgery for his, he is still quite poorly and in hospital awaiting chemotherapy to tackle the other tumours that they could not get. However, my nanny has T4 inoperable pancreatic cancer, and we are awaiting confirmation of the grade to determine what we have left. I don't know how to cope with these new experiences and emotions, and have been pushing all of it down and burying myself into work. I have also recently gotten engaged and im really struggling with the reality that she might not be there. I guess I just wanted to come on here and talk to/ hear from others who understand as I feel like my friends don't want to talk about it and I don't want to talk to my family as I don't want to upset them, and when I try to talk I just cry. I don't know what to do and what to feel and how to cope.
