Hello everyone, 

I have been reading your posts and wondered if I could ask for some help please. My partner has Paraganglioma tumors (NeuroEndocrine cancer) it's the 3rd cancer episode in just under a 2 year period. We have been together 2 years and at times it has been so tough on both of us. 
This time around it feels like it's so much harder. I feel so selfish as I feel like I'm being pushed away again.  We haven't spoken properly since Thursday last week. Any communication is very stilted and I feel pushed to the side and discarded. We have both come from very difficult relationships. I feel very ashamed as sometimes I ask myself is it all worth it? That said, I love him very much. Is love enough though? 

I wondered if anyone has any advice on the type of cancer and if anyone has any suggestions on how to deal with being pushed away and kept at arms length please? It really hurts! I feel completely rejected and don't know how to get us through this time. I appreciate it is super hard on him because he's going through this, but I feel very isolated and don't know what to do. Feeling very sad. 
 

Thank you for your help and time in reading this post. 
 

Lady M