I feel like ive written or explained this so many times ao much so i bore myself at times.
my dad has advanced colon cancer secondary liver and he wasnt eligible for a liver operation, he had part of tje stoma removed and has a bag and has had 6 sessions of folinforox which is supposed to prolong the enevitable but not cure. Well anyway, since the treatment began his lost himself the side of effects of the chemo mean his just exsisting not living, the cramps, the thrush, the itching, the deeling tired and sick he gets 2 days at best where he feels ok so today my mum, dad and i spoke and he has now informed bis team he wishes the treatment to stop and wants to have quaility over quantity and i get it, i do, but i still feel selfish because i want him here for as long as possible his 61 and a mans man i want my dad back i know i wont get that and i know im beimg selfish, i havent expressed this to him i get it but i just hate this i hate cancer i hate it hate it hate. Im just here to rant arghhhhh
